“Hey!

First off I’d like to say that I’m sorry for making you worry about me. I’m truly okay.

I just had a talk with a friend about you and I found myself smiling at my own words for some reason. And that’s when it hit me. 

Last night I was over consumed by anger and desperation, asking myself in pitiful horror, “Why are you leaving me?!” But now the storm has cleared in my head and I can think. You won’t have to feel “strapped down” by me and I don’t have to over concern myself with your absence. I know where you were coming from (even from last night, but I was rationalizing, you see). 

I understand now. I told you, it doesn’t take me too long to grasp a concept. I want your happiness above all else. This is what makes you happy. This is your harmony. This is your choice. I care about you and respect your choices no matter how much I hate it. But contrary to my own dissatisfaction, I find myself smiling at my words right now because I know… I know what’s going on in your head. It’s what you gotta do.

So we can choose to hurt or grow from it. I choose to grow from it. Learning and thriving off pain makes you stronger, I always say.

So thank you. It clicked. I’m smiling. I’m finally content.”